Simply to Enjoy.

I was putting so much pressure on myself, that somehow I had to learn more, be more, fulfill my daily quota before I could move on in my day, but that’s not how it works.  If God is truly a part of EVERYTHING that I do, then He’s getting all that He needs. Not the 30 min to an hour but everything.   ALL of me.  That is what I desire.  I was always worried on the days that I was exceedingly happy, that He was going to take these things from me tomorrow.  That this won’t last forever.  He’s saying, 

“Yes, it can be like this everyday, just look past your circumstances and feelings, and see things the way that they really are.  See the truth, that I am still God, that I am still good, and that you are still Mine. You are more than qualified, there are no more tests. You don’t have to worry about failing, and you certainly don’t have to worry about getting things wrong.  I am never disappointed in you, never shocked.  I know all your past, present, and future “failures” and they are covered.  Stop trying to make up for them, or weighing yourself down with the weight of your failures.  I know you’re not perfect, it’s time for you to accept that too.  You ARE human. But that’s not the end of the story.  Because there is good news in the midst of your humanity.  If you are human it means that I love you more than anything, and that I am restoring you to Myself.  It means that your are moving from Glory to Glory, and that I made you to soar.  As you learn you will soar, touching down less and less often.  Climbing higher and higher to see things as they truly are below.  Until one day you will be free to fly forever.”

It gives me so much freedom. I have always felt like I was being pushed to “BE” something.  When in reality I am simply just called to “be.”  The striving and straining, are not heavenly callings. In fact, in Psalm when it says, “Cease striving, and know that I am God,” He meant it.  Stop trying to be or do anything and simply acknowledge that I am God, and when you do that, the rest of the things that you worry about will be given to you.  What a great way to live life.  By simply existing, and communing with God.  Nothing else matters, but enjoying God.  Nothing.